This past week my husband and I attended the Open Heavens Conference at Bethel Church in Redding. What a divine experience!
Each of us yearns for that special, unique touch. I want to be the one who is healed from my chronic pain, or whose fillings God replaces with gold. Or better yet, restore the missing and imperfect ones! I want to be the one on whom the gold cloud rests. But alas, that old spirit of rejection whispers, “He won’t choose you. Just wait – you’ll see. You aren’t special.” I recognize that nasty old spirit – it’s relentless.
So once again, I tried to quell my spirit when I wanted to ask God to touch me, to show me that I’m special, that He chooses me. During our first evening’s worship time, I felt excited inside. I wanted to ask Him to choose me, but I told myself, “He won’t do it for me.” I wanted to give Him an out, just in case He wasn’t going to choose me. Limiting God once again!
Then I heard His Spirit tell me to, “ASK. Don’t be afraid.” He told me to put a demand on His love. So I asked, and I waited, peacefully. Looking back, I don’t think it was the request itself that mattered. It was letting go and letting God out of the little box I keep trying to stuff Him into.
Every message of the conference seemed tailored to me, and it was pleasing to pray for the wonderful people around me. The last message was ending when the young man sitting next to me turned to me and asked if he could pray for me. He told me that Jesus gave him a single word for me – reassurance. WOW! If I could receive only one single word from the Lord, I could not have chosen a more perfect one.
The Lord has been encouraging me for months now, reminding me that He is my Everything. I’ve felt bad for continually needing Him to tell me He’s got my back. But He hasn’t grown tired of telling me He loves me and that He’s taking care of the chaos in my life.
That young man blessed me by his obedience; I hope my excitement and joy in hearing his prayer for me blessed him. Thank You, Jesus, for Your perfect word in Your perfect timing. And thank You for placing that radically obedient young man next to me. I enjoyed worshiping You with him and watching him grow more and more excited by Your Presence. Bless him, Lord. Let Him feel Your love pour over him like warm honey, warm and thick and sweet! Thank You, Jesus!
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Your words touch my heart.. I love how you write whats in your heart, and blog for us to read and get inspired, and how God touches your life!! Keep blogging
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@marilynstc – thank you for your words of encouragement. It is wonderful to just let go and express myself so freely. I hope others will be encouraged to do the same – what an amazing way to share Jesus’ love with the world!
Love your vulnerability and honesty. It’s refreshing.
You spoke my heart. How can anyone else feel just the way I do? The insecurity, the believing that God does not find me special. I’ll probably be passed over. And yet, by the end of the day God met your need. Hallelujia! Thank you for sharing. That really blessed me :).
@ carole – oh, my dear, sweet sister! You are not alone, and you are not the only one to feel that way! I remember so vividly, sitting in class those first few weeks and months last year, thinking “What am I doing here, among all these people? God is really using them. Why not me?” The Truth is He has chosen you.
You are His Princess, His favorite, His chosen one. You are beautiful; the stars pale in comparison to your beauty. Papa’s fingerprints are all over your life; His plans for you are great and wonderful. Enjoy the process – it’s much like unwrapping presents – gifts wrapped inside of gifts, inside of gifts. I cannot wait to see your destiny unfold!
One word from God is so amazing. It satisfies and you are still ready for more. The good thing is there is always more. Well done sharing the moment and keep going.
@ seanc76 – Reassurance was something that I constantly had sought from God, literally for months. Circumstances were devastating, and there was nothing good in sight. Everyday I could only squeeze my eyes tight and pray, pray, pray. God was gentle and patient, and continually spoke love and beauty to me through everyone around me.
This young man blessed me with that single word, “Reassurance.” Then he prayed for me and there was freedom. I truly hope I was able to encourage him in return. He had heard from God, a word for an absolute stranger, and he shared it with me. He rocked my world. And then it was my greatest desire to pour back into him – God is so good!
Thank you for reading my blog. I hope that you too find your blog to be a place where you can share how God touches you.
So cool when people are obedient to the voice of God. Everyone gets blessed and our faith is increased! Soak in the love that God has for you, for his love is complete.
God bless you for opening the door to your secret place and allowing us to eavesdrop, as you pour out your heart tender lady. We hang on each word, eager to see where you’re going. Thank you for the example you’ve set for we newbies, who don’t know where to start.
I like to look up words, even when I think I know their meaning, I usually learn something interesting. Reassurance: 1. a second assurance against loss 2. to restore confidence 3. to free from fear Assurance: 1. the act of assuring, or of making a declaration in terms that furnish ground of confidence 2. firm persuasion; full confidence or trust; freedom from doubt; certain expectation; the utmost certainty 3. firmness of mind; undoubting steadiness 4. excess of boldness
What seemed like a treasure to you, gold, wasn’t Daddy’s best. He was so determined for you to hear Him that He gave a stranger the boldness to declare His affection.
I love to use prophetic words I’ve received as weapons, sometimes, when doing spiritual warfare. I say, “what you want me to think can’t be true because my Daddy said _______!”
You are so right! It is the treasure of the heart that remains forever.
God had given me the one thing I most desired, I most needed. I needed Him to choose me to receive something that could only be meant for me. And God gave that to me! Papa spoke directly to the fear that would not let go of my heart. He had been telling me for months in His quiet ways. But in that moment it was if Jesus was standing next to me, looking directly in the eyes, speaking directly to me.
That was reassurance on so many levels! And yes, after that, I had everything I needed to confront any fear that tried to raise its ugly head. My Daddy made it very clear that He had everything under control, and I am not ever going to give that away.
Thank you for your encouragement. God bless!
You have a great gift of art with your words, as I read I see the happenings and sense the atmosphere! I so enjoyed catching a glimpse of your walk thru your journal. Thank you for your inspiration to me Love the pix
@ gemmadvent – thank you for your encouraging words. That is my hope, that each person who reads my words can experience what I felt and can catch a glimpse of our Creator.
Bless you, my friend!
Thank you M** ,it is awesome when God does that… and He does it more than we realize ,disregard when stan wants to trick you with thoughts or feelings that they’re not yours , pray harder seek harder press into God!! don’t buy his lies, God will always come through with a word or a blessing some how. I was reading today Genesis 21:14 when Abraham sent Agar away to the desert with her son ,and she ran out of water and said well I don’t want to watch my son die ,so she moved away from him about the distance of the shot of an arrow it says; but she didn’t ask God anything ,her son who is far away starts crying to heaven ,the story says, and the angel of the Lord talks to Hagar not to the son, and tells her God heard the boys cry!! and the angel of the Lord opens her eyes so she could see the water near by ..I think just like with you God knows everything in our hearts and He has the answer ready even b4 we cry out to Him …good blogging ,many blessings to you!!