This afternoon I chose to start reading “Operating in the Courts of Heaven (new edition 2021) by Robert Henderson. I’ve been reading it slowly to soak in what the author is sharing and revealing and to capture my thoughts on what I am learning. For the past few hours I have also picked worship music on YouTube to which I have sung, danced, worshipped, and journaled.
I was digging deeper into the meaning of “Abba” and “Father,” and reveling in the Spirit of Adoption. I looked up and chose Todd Agnew’s “Isaiah 6.” Todd Agnew is my first Worship Leader Hero of my faith. His voice resonates within me, and his yearning for God is palpable to me. The video began with Todd praying and asking for God’s Presence to be revealed to us, for that is all we need. I thought, AMEN. The music began and Todd sang, “I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, high and lifted up…”
At the very moment I heard the music begin, I looked down into my book and read, “In the year that King Uzziah died, I SAW THE LORD SITTING ON A THRONE, HIGH AND LIFTED UP…”
I had no ideas I was about to read those verses when I chose that song.
All this happened as I am receiving more revelation about adoption in Paul’s culture and soaking in the significance of Abba and Father.
All this while asking Father, Abba, for more faith, more boldness like Achsah (daughter of Caleb), more hunger for Him, correctness in response to revelation, fullness of rights and authority as His representative.
What a way tell me that You are with me! What a way to tell me, “You are my Daughter, in whom I am well pleased!” What a way to tell me that You see me, that I do measure up, that I am not rejected. I am ADOPTED. You are my good, good Father. Yes and Amen.
From Bill Johnson’s teaching…
Judges 6:34 “so the spirit of the Lord came upon Gideon… “
The word used for “came upon” translates into “to put on, to wear, to clothe, to be clothed.
Holy Spirit clothed himself with Gideon. God put him on like a glove.
Lord, In Your word you speak of putting on Gideon like a glove. Lord, put me on, be clothed in me. My personality, gifts, and talents are more fully expressed through You within me. I am empowered by You, Lord, fully expressing yourself in me. I carry your name, authority, and dominion. You have commissioned me to think with your ways, pray according to your promises, and live according to your provision. I choose to be put on like a glove. I declare this in the name of Jesus.
I stood before the counsel of the Lord. You kissed my forehead. I felt gold as honey pour over me. You, Lord, imparted into me WORDS.
“I will uphold you in My righteous hands.” Your hands held my cheeks, and You said to me, “It is all about you. You have felt misjudged, misunderstood, and rejected. But those who have caused you to feel this way are not important to who I say you are and Whose you are. You are mine.”
“Let them go. Let loose the chains. Cast off the ropes.” In my mind’s eye I saw a trailing rowboat. I threw off the ropes, and I felt freedom. A weight was lifted.
Lord, you have called me to write. Whether for myself of others, You give me words. You provide me peace and joy in writing. Again, in my spirit I see gold ink and a quill pen…
Thank You, Father, for these cherished moments in our secret place. Thank You for speaking through me. Thank You for anointing my words.
Lord, help me to love myself better so that I may love others more. Help me to love extravagantly, that I may walk in the fullness of my callings, giftings, and anointings which have been in Your heart and mind for me. I renounce shame and self-judgment, and I receive a double portion of endless joy and everlasting bliss. I embrace who You say that I am.
I declare these things in the mighty Name of Jesus.
Lord, You have called me Amethyst, and I embrace this! I renounce the lies that I cannot control my thoughts and must count on ways of this world to keep my mind from swirling and spiraling. Cleanse me, Lord, of negative influences and attachments. I control not only my thoughts but also my dream life, for I have the mind of Christ, and I choose to remain mindful of You. Lord, You guide me and protect me. You watch over me.
I repent, Lord, and I ask for forgiveness. Cleanse me of all negative influences and attachments. Envelop me in Your spiritual light, and I will rest in You.
Lord, I am extremely left-brained. Thank you for this gift that likes to organize things and administrate. Help me to hone this skill for Your glory. I ask You to bring to my remembrance the good plans You have for me. Reveal my destiny and help me to refine my gifts, callings and anointings for Your purposes and glory.
I declare these things in the Name of Jesus, the One True King of kings and Lord of lords.
As I began pondering the question “What biblical foundation have I found for believing that God is good” I immediately saw God in the cool of the evening, calling out to Adam and Eve – calling out to me! God is so pleased to be with me. He is always present and intentional towards me. Though sometimes I am as a selfish child – focused on me and my circumstances, Papa God is ever near. He stands ready to meet me wherever I am. He is ready to pick me up, brush off the dust, and set me AGAIN on firm soil – on the solid Rock.
For me the Garden of Eden is a love story, full of redemption and restoration. God was not disappointed in Adam, and He is not disappointed in me. Though God and I may co-create for hours and I suddenly stumble into ungodly thoughts or actions, we remain securely connected, for Papa neither stumbles nor rejects my missteps.
I used to be angry with Adam and Eve. If only they had not messed things up for us. But then I realized that I make the same mistakes daily. God is not bothered by them, though He does wish for me to learn from them. In His goodness and His love, God nourishes and strengthen us so we may remember who we are and Whose we are. This is what is important to Him. There is no denying His goodness.
In the New Testament I am drawn to the Canaanite woman who showed great faith. No one is turned away from His goodness, and we need only the smallest portion – mere breadcrumbs – to know the love and goodness of God. His goodness is indeed extravagant. Indeed, we speak of the recklessly spending prodigal son. I would submit that God’s love and goodness is wastefully extravagant! I am undone by a vision of Papa God running towards me, arms outstretched, love and acceptance etched across His countenance.
We tend to see God’s goodness through the lenses of what He has given us or what He has done for us. This is not incorrect. It simply reflects the inability to truly know, at least in this human form, the depth and height and breadth of His love and sacrifice for us. We can do nothing to deserve it, let alone repay it. We must simply accept it.
Isaiah 46:10 TPT “I declare from the beginning how it will end and foretell from the start what has not yet happened. I decree that my purpose will stand, and I will fulfill my every plan.”
Isaiah 55:11 TPT “So also will be the word that I speak; it does not return to me unfulfilled. My word performs my purpose and fulfills the mission I sent it out to accomplish.”
Hebrews 10:23 TPT “So now we must cling tightly to the hope that lives within us, knowing that God always keeps His promises.”
Lord, You are I AM. You are the Ancient of Days. You know the end from the beginning. It was, and is, and will be as You have spoken it, for Your Word will not return to You void. You call into existence what You want to come to pass. You tell us to do the same thing – we are to speak it out.
Lord, You agree with me as I declare: I am fully persuaded by Your Word. I fully believe You. I do not talk fear, doubt, or unbelief. Instead, I speak love, faith, and trust. I rebuke my negative confessions. In Jesus’ Name I break of the power of those words and rebuke all that they have empowered. I choose to speak Your words, Your positive, faith-filled words.
Lord, speak to me so clearly that I will have no doubt that You are leading me in Your ways. Draw me ever closer so that I may hear Your voice with clarity in Your Word. Lord, I believe Your promises and I cling tightly to them. They will come to pass, for You always keep Your promises.
Lord, I seek You. I trust You. I am obedient to You – Lord, help me in my lack of faith and obedience. I can neither dream nor imagine the good plans you have for me. Help me to rest in the knowledge that You have good thoughts and plans for me, my family, my city and my nation.
Lord, this day I choose to yield to You. You have good plans for me, good thoughts of me, and good ways that will lead me, protect me, and bring Your dreams for me to fruition.
Inspired by His Word, “Lion Bites” prophetic word, and my journal
I recently reread “Supernatural Ways of Royalty by Kris Vallotton with Bill Johnson. This book has been a word of reassurance and great encouragement, and it has given me more security in my place as His daughter. God is passionate for me and my involvement in His Kingdom. Inasmuch as I want to serve the Lord, however, I have to learn what that looks like from my place in the palace of our King.
There is an Assessment at the end of the book. According to it, I am about halfway to the palace. In truth, I believe I live in the palace, but I’ve gotten lost in the neighboring fields and am finding my way back. I am doing this step by step with the God of Restoration. I have been living in the Kairos time of God since October, when I chose to blow up the tombstones commemorating my pain, loss, and disappointment. He has ordered my steps from the graveyard to His palace by way of Bethel’s Prophetic conference, a sozo, an Inner Healing and Deliverance conference, and Bethel School of Technology’s coding school. Yes, coding school! God knew how much this school would heal the broken places in me; He is redeeming my regrets through coding.
I am thankful that when I was so broken and could not raise my head, Jesus was with me. No condemnation, no impatience. He simply stood with me and poured out His love and compassion. But right now, in this moment, I understand that I am still in the wrong place! I have been resting in the knowledge of His love, grace, and mercy – and this is not wrong. However, I am His daughter, and my place is in His Presence at His table. Reading Supernatural Ways of Royalty right now has unearthed the deep, hidden lie that I still believe – I am an imposter in His throne room. Because I am not perfect, I am unworthy. I am believing the lie that I have to be perfect before people or else I am a fake. God is not calling me to be perfect before Him, so why do I still face a fear of man and his judgment – if I do not do all things in godly, perfect ways then I am not good enough. God alone is my Judge, the Ancient of Days. He sees me and covers me. He protects, stands watch over, keeps His eyes on me, and keeps me in His care… His favor is mine.
In my pauper mentality, I was prepared to give up myself completely, to let go of my identity, hopes and dreams to placate others who had already forsaken me, in hopes that there might be reconciliation. I believed the lies that I was not enough and everything I once loved about myself was somehow bad. In all my spiritual growth I did not see that my eyes were on a man with God standing in the distance behind him.
God is not the author of my losses, but He is absolutely giving me opportunities to see Him and to see ME. I see, but I am again being satisfied from a distance. I’m on the patio of the great palace, but I still have not opened those doors and reentered my place at His table. I see myself looking at my reflection in the windows those doors. I am strong, beautiful, intelligent, and passionate.
It is time to throw open those doors and step into my place as His Daughter. I am fierce, and there is much God and I will do together.
Jeremiah 11: 11 – 14 NASB For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you,’ declares the Lord, ‘and I will restore your fortunes and will gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you,’ declares the Lord, ‘and I will bring you back to the place from where I sent you into exile.’
How often we hear verse 11 and are encouraged by it. God drew me attention past this verse to the next verses to encourage me, affirm me, and remind me that I am firmly in His hands. His promises from these verses resound within my spirit…
“You are seeking Me, and you have found Me. Keep seeking! Seek with all your heart, for there is where you will find Me – in your heart. I will bring you back from your captivity – from your prison cell of dread and despair, loss and shattered heart. I will bring you back to the place from which you were taken – back to the place of hope, joy, peace, acceptance, connection, identity, and purpose. There you will find your new mantle.”