Sprained ankle healed!

2240429924_38ef99cfa4_oFaceBook is a great way to connect and send healing!

This morning as I was checking facebook, I noticed a friend had posted a story about spraining her ankle. Ouch! Poor girl! She was thankful that she had not spilled the food from her plate onto the light-colored rug when she fell.
I thought to myself, “That’s not good enough! She should be thankful for healing.” So I posted a prayer for her. I commanded trauma out, in Jesus’ Name. We said NO to pain, tenderness, and bruising, and YES to complete strength and wholeness.

About 8 minutes later she messaged me. She said, “I’m freaking out here on my bed!”

It seems the swelling in her foot had been increasing and she could not feel two of her toes. As she read my prayer, her foot started to get hot and the numbness in her toes went away. She said that as she looked at her foot, “It literally looked like a balloon deflating and the color returned to normal, crazy!!!”

Thank You, Jesus! We give You all the glory. You are awesome, and we love You!

God loves us, He is always good, and He is always in a good mood! He never tires of doing good. Best of all, He loves to include us in what He is doing.

Beauty for Ashes, a Tale of my Jackie Beads


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It has been three months since my loss of my beloved iguana, and it still saddens me to awaken to … no Jackie. But God comforts me in many different ways. I’d like to share a unique way God has used this loss to bless someone I may never meet here on earth.

My loss of Jackie put me in contact with Dolly, a woman in San Diego who uses her creativity and her skilled hands to create glass art. For me she created memorial glass beads and a sun catcher: my Jackie beads.

When I lost Jackie, I had her cremated. Creepy to some, but creepier still for me was the thought of her body being indiscriminately disposed of by strangers. Once I received her cremains, I sent a small amount to Dolly, who enveloped a tiny amount into glass beads.

When I received my Jackie beads, I was awestruck. It was not just the stunning visual beauty of the beads that moved me. When I held them, I felt Dolly’s love and gentleness that she poured into my Jackie beads.

I was so blessed that I immediately emailed this dear woman. I thanked her and shared how she had blessed me. I asked if I might pray a blessing over her; I blessed her and asked God to exponentially multiply her creativity and the work of her hands. I didn’t know how Dolly might respond to my email, but I felt my heart might burst if I did not respond to the love I felt.

My blessing was an affirmation for Dolly. She later told me that her talents are a Godly gift and that she prays for each family for whom she creates a memorial. God has affirmed that He is well pleased with her prayers and tender heart. He is pleased with the way she uses her gifts to honor and love on others. I’m thankful that God prompted me to thank her and bless her.

Thank you, Papa, for bringing love and joy into my loss.  Even though it still hurts, you have worked my loss into an opportunity to bless someone else, someone who quietly uses her godly gifts to bring beauty for ashes!

A Love Letter


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Last Thursday during worship, I had the opportunity to write and share the impressions I felt from Papa God. I’ve decided to share my experience here. I haven’t decided whether to share everything, or just what I was able to share that evening (2-3 minutes goes very quickly!)… I’ve decided to share everything.


Come, Rest in My Presence.

Your praise brings tears to My eyes. Your love draws Me to you. I will not be deterred. You have sought Me, and you have found Me.
Rest in My Presence. Rejoice in My Presence. Be refreshed in Me.
I hear your praises and I rejoice. I hear your praises and I come.

You are the Shunammite woman. As I was passing by, you called Me in. You have refreshed Me. Now allow My Presence to refresh you.
You have made a room for Me in your heart. You have made a place for Me; your heart is now My dwelling place. I will come and dwell with you forever.

[Know My heart. Know your heart.
I have already healed all your hurts.
You are beautiful. You are exquisite.
I have made all provisions. I have set you free.
You are beautiful.] (I did not share this in class.)

Not only have you made a place for Me in your heart, but you have made a place for Me in this church and in your community. You have called Me here, and I shall not pass by. I will stop and I will stay. Forever, I will stay.

[Release any doubts you have – I see them even though you try to hide them.
DO NOT DOUBT. Do not grow weary. Do not be sad, for I AM speaking to you.
Rest in Me. Let Me pour My love and My joy in you, on you, through you.] (I did not share this in class.)

Because I dwell in you, you carry My Presence wherever you go. You cannot carry My Presence with you without making a difference. I release You to carry My love to others. So, carry My love, My grace, My mercy. Heal the sick. Drive out disease. Set the captives free. Blind eyes will see. Deaf ears will hear.

Rest in Me. Find peace and comfort in Me. Be refreshed in Me.
Draw close to Me.
Know My heart.
Know My love.
Know My love for you.
You are beautiful.
You are my favorite masterpiece, and I want to spend time with you.


Thank You, Papa, for Your heart. Thank You for sharing Your love for us. Thank You, Holy Spirit, for messing with me just a little, because in doing so You assured me all would be well – all would be fun, and it was! Thank You, Jesus, for Your peace. You reminded me that I can’t perform for You or earn more love, but together we could enjoy praise and worship, and and we could enjoy what I love to do. You’re so cool! Thank You, Lord, for Jewels, for her love and encouragement. This was fun!

Thank You, My Friends

WOW! What a week! I’m humbled by all of my classmates, who took the time to read through my blog and leave comments.  Thank you!

During a quiet moment with Papa this morning, while preparing salads for my bearded dragons and foster desert tortoises, we were pondering all the different thoughts shared by everyone.  He highlighted specific thoughts from all the posts – things of which that He was especially proud.  Papa beamed with pride at all of His masterpieces – you!  You are His masterpieces, fearfully and wonderfully made in His image and blessed with His love, mercy, and grace.

I thought of Josh’s response, so analytical (loved it!) and so focused in that I gained a better perspective of my own post!  I thought of Sarah’s Chinese Water Dragon and a mom who desperately wanted to take away her daughter’s broken heart.  I remembered the one who shared her vulnerability – sharing that she too has felt unworthy and “not chosen” (Papa has marvelous plans for you, my sister!) I thought of everyone’s kindness in responding to the loss of my beloved Jacqueline, and I thought of all the words of encouragement spoken over my writing.  Words of affirmation is my love language, so thanks for all the love!

I felt Papa’s love and joy gushing out. I wish I could accurately express the glimpse He gave me into His pride for you, His children.  He created each and every one of you with exquisite care and love.  He sprinkled His Nature and His attributes in unique combinations into each of you, and He is so proud of you.  It’s impossible not to love everyone after seeing the way Papa sees you.  WOW – YOU ARE SO LOVED!

Thank You, Papa, for Your love.  Thank You for showing me Your pride and joy in your children.  This world is so much more beautiful when seen through Your lens of love.  And thanks for Jackie, and for caring for her for me.  Love You, Papa!

Quiet Time With God



I entitled this post “Quiet Time,” but  it was anything but quiet.  Last Thursday evening I stood in the midst of about 80 friends; some of them I know and treasure, more of them I don’t yet know, but still treasure.  We were worshiping God in music and singing, when I found myself in my quiet place with Father God, Jesus, and Holy Spirit.  To my great delight we were joined by my dear sweet Jacqueline, my beloved iguana that passed away in July.

Jackie was basking on a rock, and oh! how her colors dazzled me.  She was quite a beauty while she was with me, but now, her beauty is indescribable.  Her greens were bold, bright, and iridescent.  I simply cannot put into words the depth and richness of her colors.  And Jackie’s eyes –  so beautiful.  Her brown eyes with rings of gold caught my breath.  My heart rejoiced to see her as she really is, with her true heavenly beauty not obscured by my human eyes.

Then Papa told me the most marvelous secret.  He revealed to me that He had created iguanas just for my pleasure!  He told me that He knew from the very beginning that I would love iguanas and I would fall in love with their complex colors, patterns, and textures.  What an incredible gift of His Creative Genius.  How great is My Father’s love for me!

Thank You, God, for loving me so much, for knowing me so intimately, and for delighting in giving me the delights of my heart.  The world is a more beautiful place because You created iguanas, and You created them to bring me joy! Thank You, Papa, I love you!

Healing Emotions


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I have just finished the book Healing for Damaged Emotions by David A. Seamands. This post is about this book, and I am sharing some of its ideas here. I give this author full credit. He wrote about anger, guilt, depression, inferiority, and perfectionism. I think most of us can relate to one or more of those topics! There is no judgment or condemnation in this book for the Christian (or nonChristian) who is experiencing any of these, or who is still in denial about experiencing any of these. I mention this because all too often we are told that if we “really were” Christians or if we “weren’t doing something wrong,” we would not be having these problems.

The truth is, we all have junk in our past that we have to deal with. The junk affects our life. We think we can shove it deep down inside and just ignore it. Sadly, the truth is that it affects our decisions and our actions. Dealing with our junk is not about blaming someone else; it is about accepting responsibility for how we respond to it.

Let us focus on depression and the steps the author recommends (pp127-129).

1. “Avoid being alone.” Do not isolate yourself. Choose to be with other people. Force yourself if necessary.

2. “Seek help from others.” A trustworthy friend can help you get a true perspective on that molehill you’ve distorted into a mountain. A true friend can also create joy.

3. “Sing – make music.” It may not be easy to start, but it will lift your spirit. In 1 Samuel 16:14-23, we read how only the beauty of David’s music could lift up King Saul.

4. “Praise and give thanks.” Praise God even when you don’t feel like it. Praise God even when you don’t feel His Presence. He IS with you, whether you feel His Presence or not. In 1 Thess 5:18 we read, “In everything give thanks.”

5. “Lean heavily on the power of God’s Word.” Scripture ministers to us. The Psalms in particular minister to us. David often began by freely sharing his frustrations and depressed feelings, and then transitioned to praising God.

On page 128, the author lists the following Psalms: 6, 13, 18, 23, 25, 27, 31, 32, 34, 37, 38, 39, 40, 42, 43, 46, 51, 55, 57, 62, 63, 69, 71, 73, 77, 84, 86, 90, 91, 94, 95, 103, 104, 107, 110, 116, 118, 121, 123, 124, 130, 138, 139, 141, 142, 143, 146, and 147.

6. “Rest confidently in the presence of God’s Spirit.” Seek His face – His Presence. Jesus promised us the Holy Spirit, Our Comforter (John 14:16.)

This may be a really big step for someone who sees God as an angry, demanding God. I guess that’s a great topic for another post. Until then, let us hold on to the truth found in one of the most well-recognized verses in the Bible. In John 3:16 we read, “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.” Father God loves us so much that He allowed His Son Jesus to carry the weight of all our sins to the cross and die for us. God is Love.

I freely give the author full credit for this work. I have been greatly encouraged by it and would love others to be encouraged and helped by it. I highly recommend that you read this book. Most importantly, I wish to give the author honor for bringing this message in a way that is compassionate, sensitive, genuine, and non-confrontational. It is truth, given in love, with the sole intent of helping others.



A gifted friend recently drew this for me. It has made me a true believer of prophetic art. God drew this through the hands of my dear friend, and the interpretation spoke directly to my heart. While I won’t share the message, I can tell you that it spoke to the cry of my heart, a cry only God has heard. Thank you, Brandon, for this beautiful gift.


This past week my husband and I attended the Open Heavens Conference at Bethel Church in Redding. What a divine experience!

Each of us yearns for that special, unique touch. I want to be the one who is healed from my chronic pain, or whose fillings God replaces with gold. Or better yet, restore the missing and imperfect ones! I want to be the one on whom the gold cloud rests. But alas, that old spirit of rejection whispers, “He won’t choose you. Just wait – you’ll see. You aren’t special.” I recognize that nasty old spirit – it’s relentless.

So once again, I tried to quell my spirit when I wanted to ask God to touch me, to show me that I’m special, that He chooses me. During our first evening’s worship time, I felt excited inside. I wanted to ask Him to choose me, but I told myself, “He won’t do it for me.” I wanted to give Him an out, just in case He wasn’t going to choose me. Limiting God once again!

Then I heard His Spirit tell me to, “ASK. Don’t be afraid.” He told me to put a demand on His love. So I asked, and I waited, peacefully. Looking back, I don’t think it was the request itself that mattered. It was letting go and letting God out of the little box I keep trying to stuff Him into.

Every message of the conference seemed tailored to me, and it was pleasing to pray for the wonderful people around me. The last message was ending when the young man sitting next to me turned to me and asked if he could pray for me. He told me that Jesus gave him a single word for me – reassurance. WOW! If I could receive only one single word from the Lord, I could not have chosen a more perfect one.

The Lord has been encouraging me for months now, reminding me that He is my Everything. I’ve felt bad for continually needing Him to tell me He’s got my back. But He hasn’t grown tired of telling me He loves me and that He’s taking care of the chaos in my life.

That young man blessed me by his obedience; I hope my excitement and joy in hearing his prayer for me blessed him. Thank You, Jesus, for Your perfect word in Your perfect timing. And thank You for placing that radically obedient young man next to me. I enjoyed worshiping You with him and watching him grow more and more excited by Your Presence. Bless him, Lord. Let Him feel Your love pour over him like warm honey, warm and thick and sweet! Thank You, Jesus!




an evening with Francois du Toit

Listening to Francois was like drinking from a fire hose. It was intense and wonderful, and left me with a lot to ponder.

There were several points that Francois made that were significant to me:

  • Jesus canceled the delay and the distance between God and us.
  • Jesus ended the challenge of constantly requalifying for redemption, justification, and righteousness.
  • Truth awakens; error empowers delay and distance.
  • Shepherds were tending the next year’s lamb sacrifices when the angel visited them to announce the birth of Jesus.

The idea that the shepherds were tending to lambs that may serve as the next year’s sacrifices really struck me. Jesus came to cancel that sacrificial system, the system of delay and of requalification.

More powerful thoughts:

  • Father God found us in Christ before He “lost” us in Adam.
  • Isaac was born of dead womb; we are born from a dead tomb.
  • Joy is the official voice of faith.

Romans 4:15, Mirror translation

I do like the Mirror Translation of Rom 4:15. “The law system is bound to bring about disappointment, regret and anger; if there is no law there is nothing to break; no contract, no breach.”

This verse very much resonates within me; it heals me. It gives me glimpses into the depth of God’s love and grace for me. I still mess up and I still handle situations poorly, but God’s love allows me to forgive myself and love myself in spite of the mess.

“No contract, no breach” does not mean I can behave any fleshly way I wish; in fact, it makes it all the more desirable to do better the next time. It frees me from dwelling on my failure and helps me get my eyes back on Jesus. Instead of dwelling in the pit of failure and self-punishment, I am taking my messes immediately to God. I don’t have to fear His response. When I do act in a fleshly way, I know that I am still loved unabashedly. Bless God!